More times then none I doubt my progress. But then an experience happens and I finally see the giant leap I have made. For so long I didn’t believe my emotions were okay to feel; not valid enough to express. I was constantly brought down by others because my emotions are so raw and down […]
Penn State.
Like a black and white photo, I have been thinking,living, breathing black and white. Dissociated from my life once again, I am losing hope. Sitting in penn station is probably the epitome of how I dissociate. You can sit in a chair in the corner and simply watch hoards of people walk by. Not knowing […]
Compliancy
As this past week has proved immensely difficult, I’m trying to find the root cause. With the help of my therapist, we came to an eye opening conclusion. One that I agree with 100% and at the same time, one I am fearful of. Part of my recovery from trauma for the past two years […]
Social Disease
-Mwende “FreeQuency” Katwiwa A letter of apology from myself Rock turners victim and any woman who’s ever survived sexual assault I’m sorry I know truly I am Im sorry for so many things to so many people through so many times but most of all I’m sorry I believe these lies I […]
“Give the shame back”
“…raping this child all over again.” “…keeping ourselves sick through secretiveness” “…re-abuse” “….put the shame back on the cultural institutions, that are shaming girls and women.” -Ashley Judd
A new message.
As I learn more and more about where our country is going politically and how it affects those who are trauma survivors, I am physically ill and distraught. I cant understand the logic behind our “leaders”. So I coming up with a way to speak out, in a sense. I will be posting photos, bio’s, […]
Empathy’s gonna get you
Stumbled across this interesting article and a lot of things clicked for me. Hope it does for you too! http://curiousmindmagazine.com/empaths-act-strange/
Ghost Story
One of the hardest things for people without trauma is to understand flashbacks and nightmares. I’ve actually had people ask me if I start to hallucinate monsters and ask if I have “bad thoughts”. So I felt it necessary to write an entry after a particularly hard nightmare. I guess all I can say to […]
Stick in the mud
Thoughts on a gloomy day… One day you feel you are moving a mile a minute in the direction you want. And then there are days that are a stagnant, dull existence. Go through the motions, get what you need done. But for what? There is always a constant reminder that you’re stuck with this […]
Beat to my own drum.
Recent journal entry expressing my frustration and isolation that comes along with understanding my mental illness, coping with my mental illness, and thriving with my mental illness. In. My.Own. Way. Beat to my own drum. Forever this has been taught to be a negative way of being. That unique is weird, strange, and undesired. As […]
Stop and Smell My Roses 